The Silver Lining

I love Caitlin's profiles
Hehehe, I think out of everyone, Caitlin's profiles amuse me the most...hehehe
Me: oooh he's definately one in million...lol Caitlin: i guess the other 999,999 are pretty dull Me: lol yeah they are, i met them all, and no one compares, lol Caitlin: haha Me: well i mean come on he is the most important person in my life, lol...oooh the things i have said...::sigh, shakes head::
That's only some of what she puts in there! Plus she has a link to pictures...makes me cry...::sniff sniff:: meeeeeemories!!!! ::sigh::
And then of course there's the most important person in my life...Adrian! LOL:
Adrian: oh, I know ;-)
Auto response from me: dreaming sweet dreams...i'll let you wonder what they're about ;-)
Adrian: ...my shakable booty 8-)
Ooooh what would I do without him...LOL

All I have left to say now is MEEGA NA LA QUEESTA!!!! hehehehehehehehe

"I wanna wash my hands my face and hair with snow..."
Oh man did it snow! And we got a snow day!! Yeah!! I feel like a kid again! I was watching the news to see if we closed! YEAH! It's great to know that you still get snow days while in college! Anyway...this day was completely NOT productive...wait I guess it could be...we came up with new nicknames...Fran is Fucking Gay Homo...mine is Skanky Elf Rider...Lisa is Limp Monkey Penis...and Shaquiea is Small Nut Sack!!! LOL...ooh the things we do here...so now for a small advertisement...:
Have you ever seen a small nut sack excited? Then come on down to room 1316 and ask for Shaquiea!! She's got a surprise for you!!!;-)
Oh the things we come up with...

So my parents came up this weekend...brought me food...AHHH FOOD NOOOOO!!!!!!! Seriously, if I want to be able to fit in that bathing suit, I'm gonna have to so some serious not eating...uuugh...but she made me an apple pie!!!! Thank God for Lisa's boyfriend...mwahahahaha...um I mean, tee hee...O:-)...Damn my guy friends for not coming here!!! I NEED TO PAWN MY FOOD OFF ON YOU!!!! hahahahahaha!!

I can't wait for Mardi Gras...it's gonna be great...especially since I have been told that I will be hanging out with my brother, Charlie, and them...oooh yeah definately getting a video camera now!!! hehehehe

Where is the red moose?
Yeah, red moose...I need one of those...don't look at me like I'm crazy! You would need one too if you had blue monkeys stealing your clothes!! Adrian is suppose to help me find the red moose which is in Disney World...but noooo he has to be stuck in a ketchup packet!!! AHH!!! LOL!! Sorry, just though I'd open this entry with a little insanity...mwahahaha:-D

Anywho, another Valentine's Day done...doesn't really matter...I'll demonstrate with part of a conversation:
Caitlin: i love valentine's day
Me: really? it's like my least fav...i think i like arbor day better than today
Caitlin: mmm...trees
Me: lol SAVE THE TREES!! yeah baby lol ;-)
LOL, and I am NOT a dork, thank you very much, Katie. You and Lisa are the one's who watch scrambled house decorating!! LOL!! Such interesting times we have on the 13th floor...oh I would like to apologize to Kyra for last night. That was a combination of Katie and Sarah talking to you...sorry about that. Oh and I have a new nickname...I have been dubbed the phone whore. LOL...oooh my friends are great....hehe;-)

Mwahaha...
I love the links you have on your page Kyra. On that evil test, I got twisted. -->"You are just barely evil. Although you are not completely evil, you can easily change your ways if you ever desired to do so, if a tough decision comes up, you will choose the option that favors you"
So, HA to all those people out there that think I'm evil...I'm just "twisted" that's all, heheheO:-).

Anywho, I saw Sweet Home Alabama last night. And of course I loved it. I mean really, did you expect me to say anything else? It's a romantic movie so of course I loved it, hehe;-). I also got some "FY"...yeah that's Fran way of saying frozen yogurt...or should I say "Fran-jessica"? HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! Yeah, that was my dinner last night. So, all I had to eat yesterday was soup, crackers, and frozen yogurt. I would have had an actual dinner, but someone ::cough cough:: Phil ::cough cough:: would have rather gone right up to the Basketball game instead of eating a free dinner with me...the injustice...HAHAHA!! Just kidding!!!

Some updated countdowns:
Spring break: 15 days At Mardi Gras: 16 days (22) Summer Break: over 2 months...ugh Moving day: over 6 months...::cries::

Valentine's Day
Ah, yes, that damn holiday is coming up. There was a lovely editorial in the Pitt News today about it! It was about having an Anit-Valentine's Day! It would be all about grudges, and tell people what you really think about them. I must say, I definately like the idea of the Anti-Valentine's Day...I for one have never been a fan of this holiday...which is why my "Valentine" is my friend Fran...yee!! It's all about being with your girls! Kera, and if I was home, we could be valentines;-) Out of all the holidays, I have to say it's me least favorite...yeah I'm putting Arbor day above Valentine's Day! For some reason last night we were discussing Valentines days...the Nuts of Hazel that is...and then that article in today's paper...it just motivated me to write and entry about it...and since my roomate doesn't believe in love, our room is the Anti-Valentine's Day room!!! HAHAHA!

Now don't misunderstand me, I'm not a "bitter old woman whose lost her cat"...I believe in love and I love all that romantic stuff...it's just the fact that there's a specified holiday for it...there's no need for one...you shouldn't need a specific day for it...I don't know, I guess I'm just a hopeless romantic...

Countdown
Ah, I thought I needed a countdown entry...there's a few things I have to count down to...From today, I will be in New Orleans for Mardi Gras in 17 days!!!!! Whoo!!! Ye-yeah!! Mardi Gras! Gonna get crazy! And in 16 days, I'll get to be with my girls!!!!! :-D!! and then there's the 24 day countdown....and now the countdown of my impending doom...in about 6 months, I move ::cries::

Ok, that's all my countdowns for now...I may update them if I feel the need too...

Anger
Yeah you know what's the one thing that makes me really really mad?! When you tell me I'm wrong when I know I am right. For example, when you tell me I did something I KNOW I did NOT do!!!!!! And then insist that I did it even though I explained how I could not have done it, and said I have witness to testify I didn't do it!! It's so wonderful that my word means jack shit. So as far as I'm concerned, anyone who does that to me, can go f*** themselves? All right? Have a nice day.

I'm expensive
So today has be informative. I found out that I'm pretty damn expensive! Don't even ask me how much, you couldn't afford it;-) Hahaha!!!

How do you think my mother would react if I told her I would be working at Disney World during the summer? I'm really considering it! It would be soooooo cool!!!!

Anywho, just had to share that with everybody! Catch ya on the flip side;-)

I have no life
Yes, this entire week has been consumed by the dreaded ::cues scary music:: BIO!! AHH!! ::falls over:: It's so not fun. I just hope I can pass this class or else I shall feel the wrath of my mother! Anywho just wanted to say Kyra, your new layout is cool, slighty depressing and it hurts my eyes, but cool none the less. Very original of you, but then again, you always are;-). Guess what girls?! It's only about 22 days until we can have a girl's night! It's goin to be awsome! I miss you soooo much! Life just isn't the same without the beatings, screamings, insults, 4 am coffee, stick fights, whipping each other in the rain, and so many more countless things we do together. And you can't forget our associates either. So many funny things have come from them...::cough cough:: Bilbo face ::cough cough::...waaaaait...hahahaha

Alirght, well let's hope I pass my first bio exam, and the rest of them this semester and I get at least a "B" for the class...::crosses fingers::

Oh, how I love 7-11
Alright, would you like to hear the "Damn" Story? You don't? Too bad! Mwahahaha...
Ok, so Fran, Michelle, and I go to 7-11 to get slushies and a pizza. Fran and Michelle are standing together and I'm standing a few feet away from them looking at all the snacks...mmm...yummy...anyway...these two guys come in. The one guy says to Fran, "DAAAAAMN! Whats up sweet thing?!" Then this guy walks over to Michelle and says, "DAAAMN!! You fine too!" Then he walks over to me and says "DAAAAAAAMN!!!! You DAMN too!!!" And then as I walk away towards Fran and Michelle he says, "I'd fuck 'em"
So there's the "Damn" Story. But it's all good, cause we spent the rest of the night with pizza and The Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles!! Go ninja go ninja go! GO, GO, GO, GO! Oh and here's a little suggestion, if you want to laugh yet be grossed out at the same time, watch the "O" channel on Sundays at midnight...yeah some great stuff on...riiiight.

Anyway, booyah to Shaquiea! She gets me up every Saturday to go work out and this Saturday, I showed her what a work out really is!! Mwahahaha...stupid knowledge of all these exercises! LOL

Dude! I found a poster I want sooooo bad!!! But its $22 dollars!!!! AHH!!! Hmm...maybe my mommy will get it for me for my bithday...:-D I won't really need it until next year. Hopefully, Lisa, Sarah, and I get the apartment. Oh yeah, I'm gonna be decorating that place up with posters!!! Gotta get that poster and the Daredevil poster. Ben Affleck, leather...::drools::

Heat Wave!!!
Yeah, so after weeks of being single and even NEGATIVE temps here, its like 30 degrees!! You know what that means?!?! Sandels, shorts, and tanks tops! WHOO!!! Hahaha!! No, not quite yet. But that does me I won't be freezing my ass off walking to class...wait that's a good thing, damn. LOL!

Anyway, it's like only a month until I come home for spring break. You excited?!?! You should be. I mean come on it's me!;-)

Have you ever noticed that when you take a shower your mind is really really clear, (except when there's NO HOT WATER!!! grr....) and then you start thinking? Yeah, I don't like that. Because normally I think of things that then make me angry and then I make this whole speech up in my head, and then I can never remember it when I get out. I mean I don't think of angry things all the time. Sometimes I actually come up with some pretty good poetry. But then, like I said, I forget it by the time I get out of the shower. ::sigh::

Now for some song lyrics to suit my mood right now:
You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no
You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it
You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
I know that they say
That some things are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
And all of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)
You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it
You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now you tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river-er
Cry me a river
Cry me a river-er, yea yea
Oh The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving
Oh The damage is done
So I guess I be... leaving

That's it for now.

No title
Yeah, what a week this has been. I have learned that girls truly are evil. There's no doubt about it in my mind now. I find that very sad. We are evil. I hope I'm not evil like all these other girls.

On a different note, I would just like to say to make sure you know who your real friends are for without them, life is so much harder than it has to be. :-)

Some fun song lyrics:
"I don't need to fall at your feet
Just 'cause you cut me to the bone
And I won't miss the way that you kiss me
We were never carved in stone
If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself...
I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I am the king of wishful thinking
I refuse to give in to my blues
That's not how it's going to be
And I deny the tears in my eyes
I don't want to let you see... no
That you have made a hole in my heart
And now I've got to fool myself...
I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking...
I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I will never, never shed a tear for you
I'll get over you
If I don't listen to the talk of the town
Then maybe I can fool myself...
I'll get over you... I know I will
I'll pretend my ship's not sinking
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking
I'm the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you... I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
But I won't shed a tear for you
I'll be the king of wishful thinking
I'll get over you...
I'll pretend my heart's still beating
'Cause I've got no more tears for you
I'm the king of wishful thinking...
I'll get over you... I know I will
You made a hole in my heart
And I'll tell myself I'm over you
'Cause I'm the king of wishful thinking

So yeah another fun day in the life of Sere...hopefully the next entry I write will be much more enjoyable. :-)

Playa from the Himilaya
Yeah, I was dubbed the "Playa from the Himilaya" last night by Shaquiea. Why? I do not know. She's the one who has guys coming after her. Like that one night, the one actually came to the floor looking for her. She's lucky i got her back sometimes ;-). I'm like hunched over following saying "Yess, master" Wow, just had dejavu. It's like going to the mall with Steph. Yeah, my friends up here have taken to picking on me anytime they get. It's just like I never left home ;-) (I miss you guys soooooooo much! yeah, even though like only three of you if that look at this)

Yeah, it took that personality disorder test on Kyra V's journal. Basically it told me I'm obsessive complusive and dependant) Whoo, go me...riiight.

Guess what? There's 37 more days till Spring Break when I go to Mardi Gras!!!!! But it's 43 until I get home and am able to see people! AHH!!! That's so long! :-(. Summer is even longer off. I don't want to count it and depress myself. That can wait until after Spring Break. Yeah I wish my subprofile would work cause it has a count down thnigy in it, but noooo it has to hate me!

Bring on the porn names
Yeah, porn names are fun. I would like to introduce myself, my name is Heaven Wilde. My roomate's name is Busty Nova and my neighbor is Brianna Sinn. ;-). I can make your wildest dreams come true. If you don't believe me, just ask my best "customers" Vic Longhorn and Vic Steele. Although it helps greatly when your parnters are as great as you are ;-).

Anyway, yeah Shaquiea thinks that her name, Busty Nova, just sounds like a table top dancer's name, where as my name, Heaven Wilde, sounds like a hard core porn star. Whoo! Go me! lol I'll be making my debut in Heaven does the Beach this June. ;-)

But anyway, last night festivities were extremely funny. Nothing like watching your roomate try to act out the action of "reproduce" in charades! I was laughing so hard that I was actually crying. Then there's nothing like slipping a pamphlet on sex and a condom underneath the door of your friend whose boyfriend is there with her...

Shaquiea and I are thinking of sending ourselves flowers for Valentine's Day! LOL! She was looking at Godiva chocolate online too...NOOOOO NOT CHOCOLATE! TOO MUCH FAT ALREADY!! (we're girls, what did you expect?) HA HA HA! Yeah I know you're giving me that "omg, she is so weird look" It's ok, I'm used to it. ;-)

These are the days of Sere's Life...
I have determined something...my life is a freaking Soap Opera!! AHH!!! Wait, I've known this for awhile though...Sometimes it can be great, while other times...yeah...I can just hear that stupid music come up in my mind...

So yeah on a different note, I hate my subconscious. It gives me the most f***ed up dreams!

On a great note, Pitt won against Syracuse today! Yeah, go Pitt! Pitt's going to be ranked #2 now, cause Duke lost!

That damn muffin man...
Yes, I know it is almost 8:30 on a Friday night, and I haven't gone out yet. The key word is "yet" O:-) Mwahahahahaha!! Anywho this was brought to my attention by Sarah!! It is really cool! Go check it out! (Kyra V. that means you especially!) Well I am sure I will have some interesting things to put soon...Catch ya'll lata!

Another day...
So update in my life...I have changed my major. I am now majoring in prostitution! Whoo! Go me! My mother would be soooo proud...lol, not really. So yeah, if you want to know why I have changed my major, I'm not posting it...you'll have to ask me nicely and maybe I'll tell you ;-)
By the way...the smileys have a COMPLETELY new meaning to me...thanks Derek :-P :-o :-D

Now for some cool lyrics:
"I won't back down
I will not bow
I've come to bring you hell
I can't forget
Things you did
I've come to bring you hell"

It's a really cool song! (Don't you just love how I never tell you what song it is? O:-))

So, yeah...
Buenas Dias todos mis amigos! Yeah, for once in a really long time, I'm in a genuine good mood. I actually went to bed last night cheerful, (which has not happened for many months) and woke up happy (after another weird dream though...). It's funny that a matter of events over a two day period can change everything, whether it be something that happened physically to just sitting in Calc class re-evaluating who you are. I have decided things need to be different and indeed I will make them different...

Always remember:
To personal happiness...

The Flat One...
Ah, yes I was actually call this today...recap the situation...
flashback waves come across screen::
Setting, the wedge of 1316...people, Sarah, Shaquiea, and Sere...what went on? Sarah and Shaquiea were making fun of Sere for eating only a salad for dinner...Sarah:"Yeah, three bites and she's full!!" Shaquiea:"OOh look at me, one leaf and I'm full" Sere, silently flips them the finger and takes out the trash, she comes back in sits down, and Suddenly Sarah says "Yeah, and the flat one ::points at Sere::"
::flashback waves come across screen::
Yeah, so Sarah was toying with the idea of calling me "Flatty" LOL...it was all in good fun, I took no offense, but then again, do I ever?

So yeah, another "eh" day, until my..."interesting" conversation with Derek...cheered me up a lot...lmao

(Derek): yeah...hey i feel the same way when you start speakin spanish...that's especially weird in the bedroom
(Me): speaking of spanish and bedroom, oddly enough i know how to say some pretty...um interesting things
(Derek): good stay fresh with that...lol
(Me): lol, ill have a whole bunch stored up for the june...lol
(Derek): i'll make you feel things you can't describe in spanish...lol
(Derek): ;-)
(Me): well you better, lol
(Derek): yeah how am I supposed to keep inventing new moves I have no one to practice with...lol
(Me): aww, i guess you'll just have to wait to try them out...lol
(Derek): well all i gotta say then is make sure you eat your veggies this semester and bring plenty of gatorade...

Never a dull moment with Derek. Just wanted to share that with the few of you who do check this, because you were there for the start of it all ;-).

Highly suggested
Hello! Yes, I'm just making and entry to tell you that if you don't, you should check up on The Secret Lair. There is always...um...interesting things in there ;-)

I like monkeys
Yeah, the title has nothing to do with the entry. It was just something interesting I saw on the internet. It was one of those electronic greeting things. It was quite amusing and disturbing at the same time.

Kyra V., I hope things get better. ::hugs:: If you even need to talk, you know you can call me on my cell 24/7!! :-)

I think I'm being replaced! By Thor and Yak of all people! LOL (just kidding) Yeah those pics are quite...um...intersting. Riiiiight. Yes we are going to have to do that when I get back ;-)

Hm...lets do some more song lyrics...they're fun O:-)
"I hear the ticking of the clock
I'm lying here the room's pitch dark
I wonder where you are tonight
No answer on the telephone
And the night goes by so very slow
Oh I hope that it won't end though
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
You don't know how long I have wanted
To touch your lips and hold you tight
You don't know how long I have waited
And I was gonna tell you tonight
But the secret is still my own
And my love for you is still unknown
Alone
Till now I always got by on my own
I never really cared until I met you
And now it chills me to the bone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
How do I get you alone
Alone, alone"

About 47 more days, girls!

Only my roomate...
Yes, only my roomate would tell Sarah and I that she is cousins with Mario Batali and that her great-great-great-great-great-great uncle is on the iron chef. I think she is a complusive lier, but that's just me ;-).

On a different note my poster came today!!! My poster of Legolas ::drool:: came!!!! I put it up right away....oooh he's so so hott! It's a wonderful poster! It's good Sarah thinks he's hott too, because she'll have to deal with this poster all next year! He, he, he!

Now for a little song lyrics to suit my mood, kinda:
"If I had just one tear runnin' down your cheek
Maybe I could cope
Maybe I’d get some sleep
If I had just one moment at your expense
Maybe all my misery would be well spent
Yeah
Could you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you’re feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
If your love could be caged
Honey I would hold the key
And conceal it underneath
The pile of lies you've handed me
And you’d hunt those lies
They’d be all you’d ever find
That’d be all you’d have to know
For me to be fine
Yeah
And you'd cry a little
And die just a little
And maybe I would feel just a little less pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
Give it up baby
I hear your doin’ fine
Nothings gonna’ save me
Til I see it in your eyes
Some kind of heartache honey
Give it a try
I don’t want pity
I just want what is mine
Yeah
Would you cry a little
Lie just a little
Pretend that you're feeling a little more pain
I gave, now I'm wanting something in return
So cry just a little for me
Yeah
Cry just a little for me
Whoa whoa
Could you cry a little for me
hmmm yeah yeah"

That's about it for right now, later!

Butt Juice
HAHAHA! Yes, butt juice. You would understand if you read the 2nd Chapter of my Biology book. Nothing quite finishes off your night like your roomate dance around the room pretend to spray butt juice on you. LOL She keeps practicing for The Candycornettes. Such interesting times are had with in this wedge of a room.

So yeah, I've been wating for my poster to come!!! It should come soon!! Im such a dork, lol

And Kyra V. tell MERT I'm very upset with him for giving crack to my computer!! He, he, he! ::Hug:: I still look for familiar faces too, Kyra. As I walk down the streets, I alwyas hope to see someone. Although I am really stupid in looking because I know I won't see anyone here. ::great big giant super hug:: I miss you girls!

Technology
I have determined that technology hates me! AHH!! My computer doesn't work right! It says I have no CD burner when I know I do and I can find it on my computer! Stupid program....I think it is on crack. Grr...

The Candycornettes
Ah yes, well according to Shaquiea, her, Sarah, and I are starting a band. Shaquiea will sing, Sarah will play the violin, and I will play the piano. We already have our first song! "Don't be fooled by the space we got, we're still the girls from Tower A, used to have a little room now we have a big one, but we still know where we came from, TOWER A!" This should prove to be interesting to say the least.

On a different note, nothing makes laundry fun than your roomate with her mesh laundry bag over head as she tries to claw out of it saying "I'm stuck! I'm stuck" Laundry time fun.

Queens of Blah
You ever just feel that Blah feeling? If you never have, just come to room 1316 and you'll be swimming in it. Tons of fun.

Anywho, classes are...yeah...Bio will be the death of me, seriously. I have a feeling I am going to be so stressed out this semester. Stupid school. Why do we have to grow up?

On a completely different note, I had the weirdest dream last night! I was trying to find a friend's dead parents or something, but their parents aren't dead in real life. And everyone was speaking Spanish where I was in the dream. And I was looking for one of those glow in the dark sticky stars for walls and ceilings and stuff...it was weird.

How about dem Stillers?
Ah, yes I'm back in Pittsburgh, or should I say "Picksburgh"? Personally, I haven't quite got my Pickburguese accent and way of talking. Although I do like to talk to my friends back home with it. Anywho, day number 2 of classes. This should be fun. I have 2 more to go through today and I am done! (for to today that is). Ugh, but I have Bio at 4 until 5:15...but before that I do have volleyball...hopefully it will be fun.

Oh it feels like I never left this hell! (Talking about my wedge of a room, not Pittsburgh in general). It just hit me as I was walking down the street, "Was there a winter break? Or was it all a wonderful dream?" I am back to my routine here at Pitt...hopefully I will change that to add in more work out time...gotta lose all the "Freshman Fat" for this summer! Gotta look good on a bathing suit ::shudders at thought of self in bathingsuit:: haha. Well I will end this now...got to get ready for my next classes!

It's 1:30 - To the Taco Bell!
There are times in my life where I honestly feel like I am the luckiest person in the world. And tonight was definately one of those times. It was all due to my most wonderful friends. They know exactly how to cheer me up and make me feel happy once again. I cannot imagine my life without them. They have give me so much more than I could have ever imagined.

I bet you're probably wondering why in the world is this lunatic ranting about here friends. Well, tomorrow, or shall I say later this morning, I am leaving, once again, for college. Winter break is over, second semester is starting. I have a feeling that this semester will be much harder. Simply because I know that my impending doom is lurking above my head waiting to strike, and make me fall. Sadly, when I fall, there will be no one there to catch me, to ease my fall. I will be completely alone and left to depend soley upon myself. People always tell you to depend on no one but yourself. But it never works. There will always be someone's smile you need to see, someone's laugh you need to hear, someone's arms you need to feel around you to make everything better. I have learned that your friends will pull you through. Whether it be simply listening, then making you laugh, saying the two of you will live in antartica and go penguin riding, or simply letting you vent to them online unitl 2 in the morning on a school night.

Each passing day is a reminder of what I have to lose. Each day it get's harder and harder so say "goodbye." I know in my heart that saying "goodbye" to them after this summer will be the hardest thing I will have to do.

But anyway, only I would get into a argument with a friend that would spawn the quote "He'd never get a chance to eat him. He's a fricking wizard, dumbass." And how could a day go by where I do not get made fun of..."I need a tire wheel." "I can walk up the stairs" ::thud thud thud::. Like I have said many times before, I love my friends, and i really do mean it. Only they would drag me out at 1:30 am to Taco Bell, dance and sing and scream in my car, try to jump out of my car, make me do the Bilbo face, and come back and throw snow at each other. Plus who else would I give full service rides to?

I have had a wonderful break. My only regrets are that I wish I spent some more time with certain people, and that I didn't get to say "goodbye" to someone. But there is still time. Many more memories to make, many more heads to turn, many more people to scare. I only hope that our paths continue together, and for those that have stayed or will stray, I pray that our paths will cross again.

Looking back
It is hard to imagine that another 365 days are gone. I cannot believe where 2002 has lead me. It was definately an eye opening year. It would be a lie to say that I have no regrets about this past year. Given the chance, I would change a few things. However, now, I will just sit and smile upon the fact that 2002 is finally over

Don't get me wrong, I had many good memories from 2002. However as well as being the best year of my life, it was also the worst. Thank God for my friends, or else I would have never made it through. I am forever grateful for all you have done for me.

I have learned that when one door closes another opens. 2002 signified a part of life ending. But a whole new set of opportunities and experiences opened for me. I have made new, great friends in Pittsburgh. I still love all my friends from Reading and always will. Never let people tell you that things will be different with your friends when you go to college because they aren't as long as you're true friends.

Good luck to everyone in 2003!

No introduction needed
Actually, that's not true. Welcome to The Silver Lining. I now proudly have my own blog just like Empress Kyra V. However, I will continue to write in The Secret Lair. I will not forget fellow Nuts of Hazel or the fellowship of the stick. ::the peaznats rejoyce::
So please, look around. And do not forget to check out the links on my page here!

day the Smeagol begins
Just having Kera show me the ropes of HTML...in her most wonderful words....w00t!!!