The Silver Lining

WELCOME TO MY HELL!!!

Yep...
Well, the furniture fit how I wanted it to in my room. One good thing. I don't know when I'm going to get out there. My mom wants to come up after the game on Saturday. We'll see what happens.

Stupid fire alarm this morning. Went off. I just got out of bed. We had to evacuate. It wasn't that cold out. Thankfully.

"Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it ok
There's always some reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless
And maybe I'll find some peace tonight"

So yeah...not much to say. I have a stat exam today and a chem exam tomorrow...should be fun...

Mmm...road trip
So yeah, Sar, Baby, and I are thinking about taking a road trip. It would be soooo cool! We just kind of have to run it by our parents first. But, we have a pretty good plan for it. We just need to do it before January 16th, 'cause that's when my insurance is due which I can't afford. So, I won't have a car. Yeah, even with me working, I won't have enought. Well, I will, but it will drain my bank account. And I don't want that. So, I guess I just won't have a car. Oh well.

Anywho, the new house...yeah don't get me started...

So excited for the football game next weekend! It's going to be soooo awesome! It's going to be soooo nuts there!! I can't wait!:-D

Halloween is approaching. I'll get to carve pumpkins this year!! YAY!! I love carving pumpkins! Now, the new neighborhood and "ooo" and "awww" and my mad pumpkin carving skills!

Wow, I'm pretty tired. I think I may go to bed soon.

So long...
Spent the last time ever at my house. We move this week. Next weekend I'll be sleeping in my new room. ::sigh::

Had a great time this weekend. Really surprised, Kyra, Mike, and Chris. The expressions on Mike's and Chris' face were priceless. And Kyra was ready to kill me when I showed up. HAHAHA! I'm a good liar:-D. Like always, leaving is really really hard. Kyra came back with me though. I needed to drive me car out to the new house. That was one long and interesting drive. Much laughing. She saw the new house! It's so cool! Then we came down to school. She got to meet some of my friends. We had fun. Stupid museums are closed on Monday, though. Grr! Oh well. She just left though. ::sniff sniff:: And I have class in 30 mins. This is def. the worst day of the week.

Don't ask
"Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Everyday
It's as if I play a part
Now I see if I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart
Who, is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me
When will my reflection show
Who I am, inside
I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But some how
I will show the world, what's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am
Who, is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me
Why is my reflection someone
I don't know
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am
Inside
There's a heart that must be freed
To the light
My heart
With the need to know
The reason why
Why must we all conseal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be, a secret me
I'm forced to hide
I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else fr all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside
When will my reflection show
Who I am, inside"

Dreams
So yeah, I had a wierd dream last night. I dreamt that I was getting married, but my mom wouldn't let me have the color and kind of flowers I wanted. So I was like, I'm not getting married if I can't even have the flowers I want. It was very wierd.

However, that dream led to the conversation that Kyra and I were/are having. We're talking about what we want our weddings to be like. I know a few things I definately want. Like the flowers, color, possibly the cut of the dress, the month, and if I get married up here, then where I'll get married, and where I'll have pictures taken.

However, that conversation led to how we are going to end up not married and living with cats. Then that spread to a rather amusing conversation that had to do with our guys....lol

Anywho, so this stupid hurricane prevented me from going home this weekend, even when it wasn't really that bad here or back home. Grr. Made me very mad. But I still got to see the movie:-D, which made my day.

So yeah, the parents move in less than two weeks. Kind of excited, and kind of not. I'm excited 'cause the new house is going to be really cool, and I can't wait to decorate my room and such. But it's really going to suck because I won't get to see my friends from back home very often. Oh well I guess we'll figure something out.

Whee!
So yeah, was listening to some songs on the web and came across this one that I liked. So guess what?! You get the read the lyrics!! Mwahahaha!! Yeah, but I really like this song:

"Everybody's talking
But they don't say a thing
They look at me with sad eyes
But I don't want the sympathy
It's cool you didn't want me
Sometimes you can't go back
Why'd you have to go and make a mess like that
I just have to say
Before I let go
Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down (so)
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
Cuz what you did was low
No, I don't need your number
There's nothing left to say
'Cept I never thought
It'd hurt this much to be safe
My friends are outside waiting
I've gotta go
Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down (so)
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
Cuz what you did was low
What you did was low
I walk out of this darkness
With no sense of regret
And I go without precautions
We both know you can't say that
Just to show
For all the time I loved you so
So
Have you ever been low
Have you ever had a friend that let you down (so)
When the truth came out
Were you the last to know
Were you left out in the cold
Cuz what you did was low"

Yup, so there's the song. Today, there was like a DJ or something in the quad. We were having a grand ole dance party up here. It was bumpin', I tell you what.

Random thinking and the score...
So, yeah, I was just thinking about this. Isn't it funny how much things change with in one year? I always viewed college as a change. Not just in your surroundings, but also with in yourself and possibly appearance. But the one thing most people forget about is that your friends change to.

I've noticed a couple things this summer/beginning of school year about friendships: they completely die, begin to fade, stay the same, or become stronger. The most common are begin to fade and become stronger. There are the very rare, that stay where they are at. Thankfully, this summer, I had at least five that got much stronger. However, I have quite a few that are beginning to fade, which makes me sad. I think one or two may have died.

Only a few of the ones I'm close to now, I was close to before this summer, we have stood the test of college. However, now comes the really hard one. Moving. So, we shall see who my friends are I suppose. I have listened to both my mother and brother lecture me on this, however, I have known what they were telling me. I look at things in a realistic manner, even though they don't beleive I do. Time will tell.

Oh, the score...so pre-season was great, except for the end. It all went to hell at the end. Had a game so far. Was, kind of iffy there for a few innings. But I believe it was a win.

Everything is funny
HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HA HA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA HAHA

Oh, that was good.

It's so happy, it makes me sick
So yeah, first week of school done. Wow, I am just so unmotived to do anything. I don't know what's wrong with me. But yeah, Espanol cuatro is going to suck some serious monkey ass. Chem doesn't seem bad...however the lab is going to be a killer. I can't understand the lab TA. Awesomezorz. Stat is boring as all hell. The only class that I think I shall enjoy is my law and environment class. Sadly it's only once a week. But it's really cool 'cause it's taught by a acutal environmental lawyer! Depending how I like it, I may gear my major toward law. Then I would have some sort of direction.

Anywho, but yeah as I was saying earlier, I am seriously lacking in the motivation department. I don't know, I think everything I have been "running from" is finally catching up to me. And it's all hitting me at once, that I just don't want to do anything, pretty much. I finally ran into a clearing and all the "balls" are coming at me from every single direction. Or maybe I'm just over analyzing. I have the tendancy to do that too.

I had fun with Baby last night. She's interesting when she's drunk. I called a few people. Quite amusing. Sar and I watched How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days tonight. Just like last year. Spending some Friday nights in our dorm watching TV. Although, we did have pizza and such last year. But I guess the cookies make up for it. I just know I'm going to gain all the weight I lost this summer back. Damn it, I really don't want to. Oh well, just guess I have to try hard not to get it back.

Song
I found these song lyrics:
"I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let go
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more
Than waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more To life..
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more to life....life..
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...
ohh...more to life....theres gotta be more to life...ohhh"

Anyway, yeah it's nice being back here. I guess I just need some more time to readjust to this type of life again. It's really nice though that "Magical" Mike(lol) has called me just about every night so far. It's really nice to hear from my friends back home. Although, I think it ends up making me even more homesick for them than before. Well, hopefully I'll get to see them pretty soon. I planning to go home before the parents move. I was all excited and ready for this move...before this past summer happened.

Here we go again...
Here we are, at the beginning to another season. Let's see how this one goes. Hopefully better than the last. It has started out pretty cool. The room is AMAZING! We have our own kitchen and bathroom and little "changing" room. The furniture is really really nice. Really, the only bad thing is that we have no A/C...but besides that, everything is awesome, even down to our RA.

Anywho, it has been really great to see all my friends. And, it is kind of nice to be back here. I haven't quite gotten back into the swing of things. I had cafe food for the first time in months. Hopefully my stomach won't kill me for it...

I miss my "crew" so much though!! I can't wait to see you!! Come visit me and call as often as you like! I love hearing from you!!

A'ight, well I gots class and work tomorrow, so I think I'll end this and go to bed. Stupid first day of school...teh suxzorz!

Here we go again...
Here we are, at the beginning to another season. Let's see how this one goes. Hopefully better than the last. It has started out pretty cool. The room is AMAZING! We have our own kitchen and bathroom and little "changing" room. The furniture is really really nice. Really, the only bad thing is that we have no A/C...but besides that, everything is awesome, even down to our RA.

Anywho, it has been really great to see all my friends. And, it is kind of nice to be back here. I haven't quite gotten back into the swing of things. I had cafe food for the first time in months. Hopefully my stomach won't kill me for it...

I miss my "crew" so much though!! I can't wait to see you!! Come visit me and call as often as you like! I love hearing from you!!

A'ight, well I gots class and work tomorrow, so I think I'll end this and go to bed. Stupid first day of school...teh suxzorz!

The Group
Wow, what an amazing summer it has been. Serioulsy, this is like the greastest one ever. Made some new friends, and got closer to some old ones! I'm going to miss them so much! They better come and visit me, or else I'll hunt them down...actually, I'll probably get Shaquiea to hunt them down for me since she's good at that;-)

I can't believe that I go back to school on Friday. I miss my friends from there a lot too, but this summer has just spoiled me. I never knew staying out late, going to wings, movies, "Wednesdays," Chinese,going to diners at 2am or just hanging out at TH could be so much fun until this summer. It wouldn't have been fun at all if it weren't for the people I went with:-)

Guys, I'm dreading saying "good-bye" to you and waiting anxiously until the next time I get to say "hello." Be safe, have fun, and try not to miss me too terribly;-)

A whole new light...
So yeah, I went to my Justin Timberlake concert, it was very fun...especially the ride to and from there, you know what I'm talking about, Shaq and Fran!;-) Anywho, so yeah I was standing there, listening to him sing his one song...and it brought a whole new meaning to me...therefore, we shall revisit it here in the blog
"You were my sun
You were my earth
But you didn't know all the ways I loved you, no
So you took a chance
And made other plans
But I bet you didn't think that they would come crashing down, no
You don't have to say, what you did,
I already know, I found out from him
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
And don't it make you sad about it
You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
Now tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
To cry, cry me a river
Cry me a river, girl
Cry me a river
Cry me a river, girl yea yea
I know that they say
That some things are better left unsaid
It wasn't like you only talked to him and you know it
(Don't act like you don't know it)
And all of these things people told me
Keep messing with my head
(Messing with my head)
You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it
(Yea..)
You don't have to say, what you did,
(Don't have to say, what you did)
I already know, I found out from him
(I already know, uh)
Now there's just no chance, for you and me, there'll never be
(No chance, you and me)
And don't it make you sad about it
You told me you loved me
Why did you leave me, all alone
(All alone)
Now tell me you need me
When you call me, on the phone
(When you call me on the phone)
Girl I refuse, you must have me confused
With some other guy
(I'm not like them baby)
Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn
(It's your turn)
To cry, cry me a river
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river-er
(Go on and just)
Cry me a river
(Baby go on and just)
Cry me a river-er, yea yea"
Yeah, well, at least one person will understand.

Not again...
Ok, so I have only 26 days left here forever basically. Well, I guess I would put it, I have 26 days left in my house. Either way, it sucks. Silly me, over this summer I got closer to a few people which I'm really going to miss. And to make matters worse, I prolly won't see any of them until Christmas break...now that is when and if they come to my new house. So if they don't, I won't see them until sometime during the summer when I come home, well back here. And then to make matters worst, there's my mental state of sheer confusion. It's funny how one person saying something can cause a whole domino effect.

Well anyway, I haven't done anything really this summer, except hang out at Steve's with the group.

I do miss all my Pitt people though! And I am looking forward to seeing you all. Cyas

Aloha from the Sacmaster's!
Well, I know I haven't made an entry in a long time, however, this one warrants a special occasion. Why? You ask? Well, I am at Steve's house and Kyra told me to make an entry, and I really, really, like his desktop computer, mainly his keyboard. I like typing which is why my brother would have me type like themes and crap from him...yes, he did that a couple of times. Ok, anywho...

Well, we have a new website called Shy Pudding. Mind you this is only the temporary official page of Shy Pudding, but none the less, it is very interesting. I find Kyra's drawings, (hahaha, I can spell it right, Sar!!) to be the highlight of the webpage. However, she did put my little stick figures that I draw while "the boys" play thier games that we always go to and watch them play.

But anywho moving on...yeah, well tomorrow it will be a exactly a month until I go back to school, and a month and one day until my birthday! Which in a way I am not to excited about. But oh well, I suppose it's the way that the cookie crumbles. Did I mention I like to type on Steve's keyboard? HHAHAHAHA...AHH!!! There's a bug on the screen!!! Wait a minute while I kill it!!....::kills bug::...there we go much better.

Well, I am looking forward to seeing all my Pitt people!! However, I am going to miss everybody from her terribly!! What will I do on Wednesdays without Wing Night with "the boys"?! ::Sigh:: I guess I will just have to savor the summer, and when I come home for visits!! I do have a pernament invite to Steve's!! Silly Steve!!!! BOOYAH!!

A'ight peace out!!!

So much conflict...
Yeah, exactly what the title says, I have so much confict however it's all in my head. I wish it was not. While I was at school, I thought I would be alright with moving. I thought, ok, well those who I'm really friends with, I'll still be friends with no matter where we are in the world. But as this summer continues on, I realize, that I do not want to give this up. There are quite a few people that I have gotten closer to this summer and I love hanging out with them. I mean like going to Steve's almost every night, LOL, I love doing that. The guys are so much fun. But then, I do really miss everyone from school. Then sitting here tonight talking with my friend Michelle, who will be going to school near me and talking about going to my brother's parites and then getting excited about my new house...but then I listen to my brother reminisce with Matt, Brian, Michelle, and I about all the crazy times we had when we were younger in the neighborhood and in our grade school, I realize that this is who I am. This is my childhood, the place I know like the back of my hand, the place I grew up. And I don't want to leave it.

I don't even want to think of the breaks next year when I won't be able to hang out with my friends, or run into anybody I know at the mall or a store. Or look forward to seeing my brother's friends who have always included me in their activities, especially my other "brothers". I can't imagine...With every passing moment I spend with my friends, I realize that this won't take place next year.

Then there's the other conflict in my mind that I have. And I have no idea how to deal with it. It's so difficut. I don't know what to do.

Greetings from across the state...
Just like the title said, greets from across the state. I am at my grandmother's currently. We came so that I can see the new house finally. Last time I saw it, it was only a land lot. So yeah...and I wouldn't even be online if it wasn't for my brother. He wanted me to check his email for him, I didn't really want to lug my computer along on this trip...grr...oh well perhaps I can set it up in the hotel room and be online tonight...we shall see.

Anywho, so yeah I'm sitting her with my Gram watching soaps. I am so mad, I forgot my earrings at home...grr! Oh well...

A little update in my life, I am still currently jobless and will be pennyless in a year if I don't get some sort of job...::sigh::

Well, all you people at home, I know you all will miss me these few days that I am not in the area, and I just know that you people from school are just dying without me!;-) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

A'ight, peace out! I'll catch you all on the flip side

Theme Song
Ahh, yes. After riding around in the car for a while, Kyra and I decided upon our own theme songs. Here is mine:
You broke my heart today
I don't know what to say
I can't feel a thing at all
I did not see it coming
Now you're just a man that got away
I look at the ground and give the sky the middle finger
Something inside said here's a day you should remember
So mark it on the wall
I never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to Dumb Girls
Taking themselves too seriously
I was so damn smart I was the one girl
Who never believed it could happen to me
'Cause something like this only happens to somebody else
I miss you so much I can't stand it
You bring out the blonde in me
'Cause I'm still hanging on
Even though you done me wrong
And I got the heart to forgive this but I'll never let you know
What kind of girl would put herself in that position?
To think that I could ever fight the system and I got fooled again
I never believed it could happen to me
Something like this only happens to Dumb Girls
Taking themselves too seriously
I was so damn smart I was the one girl
Who never believed it could happen to me
'Cause something like this only happens to somebody else
I thought I was strong but I was just dreaming
Kept believing
That nothing was wrong
I thought I knew what was going on
but love was deceiving me
Now I'm just a Dumb Girl
A Dumb Dumb Dumb Dumb Girl
That's what I am
I can't believe that it happened to me
Something like this only happens to Dumb Girls
Taking themselves too seriously
I was so damn smart, yea, I was the one girl
Who never believed it could happen to me
'Cause something like this only happens to somebody else
I can't believe this shit could happen to me yeah yeah
'Cause something like this only happens to somebody else
I guess I'm just a Dumb Dumb Dumb Dumb Girl
That's what I am
Dumb Dumb Dumb Dumb Girl

So there you my theme song...or one of them...HAHAHAHA...yeah...

Song
My mom told me that whenever she hears this song she thinks of me...so I'm putting it in here...

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder,
You get your fill to eat but always keep that hunger,
May you never take one single breath for granted,
GOD forbid love ever leave you empty handed,
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..........
I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance,
Never settle for the path of least resistance,
Livin' might mean takin' chances but they're worth takin',
Lovin' might be a mistake but it's worth makin',
Don't let some hell bent heart leave you bitter,
When you come close to sellin' out reconsider,
Give the heavens above more than just a passing glance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
and wonder where those years have gone.)
I hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean,
Whenever one door closes I hope one more opens,
Promise me that you'll give faith a fighting chance,
And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance.
Dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance.
I hope you dance....I hope you dance..
(Time is a wheel in constant motion always rolling us along,
Tell me who wants to look back on their years
and wonder where those years have gone.)

Decisions...
Trying to decide if I should/want to keep this...

I have brought doom, doom to you all!
Oh no, not doom.
Greetings and salutations. Just thought I'd stop by. Summer vacation has been...interesting so far. It has involved many tears sadly not tears of joy. Which just leads me to believe that our parents are actually right about more things than what we would like to give them credit for. But as my mother said, I guess I just had to learn things on my own. Some things change and some never do. With the things that change, we have to decide if we are going to meet it head on or cower in the corner. Cowering is not the best choice. Hmm...it appears I'm going on a tangent, therefore I'll stop.
I found it funny when Empress Kyra brought up the New Year's Eve toast a bunch of us made a couple years ago, the main part being "To personal happiness." I think it's time I followed through.
I so need a job. I have so many things I need to pay for. Ugh, not cool.

Numerology
Here is my numerology reading from my birthdate:
I was born on the 23rd, making me sensitive, understanding and sympathetic. I am very versatile.
I find it hard to express my innermost feelings, I am sensitive and intuitive. I have a good imagination and I am ambitious. I have a restless active mind.
I like to plan things, but I am undisciplined with details. I have more than my fair share of setbacks, disappointments, and frustrations, usually because I expect more from others than I should have.
I am in a nine personal year. It is a reevaluation year. I will be letting go of things that have outworn their use. I will be looking ahead, deciding where to go from here.
I will be given many false leads, but in the last three months of year it will become much clearer where I will want to go.

Schools out for summer!
Whoo!! No class for the entire summer!!! (I was commanded by Fran to make a new entry, I would have last night, but my computer was being a bitch and being slow as hell!!) Anywho...so yeah, I'm on summer vacation!!! ::points and laughs to all those who are still in school:: HAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm so nice, aren't I?
I so cannot wait for August though!! OMG 5TH ROW JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE TICKETS!!! ::scream!!:: LOL Ok, ok, right now I know that you are sitting there laughing at me...but hey, Fran, Shaquiea, and I are going to have a great time so :-P..."Don't be so quick to walk away, I wanna rock your body, please stay...bet I have you naked by the end of the song!" WHOO!!! Yeyeah!
Well, I best end this now, I have to finish cleaning out my room, and then I get to go job hunting! WHOO!! Wait, no...LOL LATER!;-)

One under the belt
Summer vacation for me starts Saturday after 2pm for me! I really can't believe that the year is already over. I have learned a lot over this past year of college. It definately changes you, and I definately like the change. Here's some of the things I have learned from my experiences here:
Not all roommate horror stories are true, You're the best roomie, Shaquiea!
You do make friends in your classes, Mis amigos!
Your brother can actually be a cool guy at college:-P
Frat parties suck
Your language gets colorful and...um...interesting;-)
Apparently I'm an alcoholic and need anger management, LOL...thanks Courtyard Palace boys!;-)
You can be really mad at someone, and think they're an asshole, yet still not be mad at them and be ok...
You get used to wearing shoes in the shower ::shudder::
You learn to be able to go on a Thursday night and still be able to get up and go to class on Friday
One of you really great friends is someone you never really expected to be, yeyeah Fran!!!:-D
You find a lot of great friends on your floor, yeah, girls!!

The last weekend....
Alright, the last weekend here was very nice. Although, I was highly disappointed that Alias wasn't not on tonight! As was the rest of the girls. Friday was interesting, because of Drew. Here are some of the quotes that resutled that night:
Drew: Are you a lesbian?
::Girl shakes her head::
Drew: You look like a lesbian.

Girl: I'm sorry I don't like having sex with gay men.
Drew: What do you mean?
Girl: It would be like having sex with a girl.
Drew: But honey, you're a lesbian.

::Drew yells out window::
Anybody masterbating? No? OK, I'll check back later.

And also that evening, Drew crimped my hair and curled Fran's, hahaha Good times. Saturday was fun, well kinda. I started packing up stuff in my room and Katie and I went to the museum. Except they didn't have my butterfly keychain!!! I really wanted it to...grr! Oh well, and today...The Easter Bunny (being me) got Easter treats! Sar is great! Thanks a bunch! You knew exactly what I wanted! Hehehe...We all had a lovely Easter breakfast at Pamela's! Mmm...breakfast...anywho...Hope everyone had a Hoppy Easter!!!

Little message to ma girlz back home, get ready to raise hell! I'll be back in less than a week!!!

"Hot town summer in the city..."
So yeah, summer vacation starts in ONE WEEK! WHOO!! No more classes until August! Yeyeah! Although, I CANNOT wait for next year! Our room is AWESOME! A big thank you to Melissa for signing us in and taking us up to room, 604 what what! And a big thank you to Bethany for asking Melissa, and giving me her phone number! YAY! It's gonna be crazy! Four blondes, one room...you know you want to be there;-)

"Something like this only happens to dumb girls"
Sorry, that's from another song I found. But yeah, it does apply to me...
Anywho, only like 9 days of school left. I can't believe it. It went so fast. I did have fun this year and made many good friends:-D. I'm kind of sad that it's already over. And P.W.'s going to be a senior next year. Wow. That always comes fast. He must come back and take me out for my 21st birthday though:-D...Although I will not get sick like him. I refuse to. Ooo...Lisa can come out too. She'll be 21! HAHAHA everyone else can't drink....
So anyway, getting back to what I was talking about...yeah this is my last weeekend here until next year. Next year is going to be great, things are going to different, I think, err..hope, everything will be better.

Mood
I feel the need to make this entry just some song lyrics I came across:
"...How could this man I thought I knew, turn out to be unjust so cruel. Could only see the good in you. Pretended not to see the truth. You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself through living in denial. But in the end you'll see you won't stop me. I am a fighter and I, I ain't goin' stop. There is no turning back.I've had enough. 'Cause it makes me that much stronger. Makes me work a little bit harder. Makes me that much wiser. So thanks for making me a fighter. Made me learn a little bit faster. Made my skin a little bit thicker. It makes me that much smarter. So thanks for making me a fighter..."

"...I can’t take it. What am I waiting for? My heart still breakin. I miss you even more. And I can’t fake it. The way I could before. I hate you, but I love you. I can’t stop thinkin of you. It’s true. I’m stuck on you..."

"Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby? Right now I feel invisible to you like I'm not real. Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you? Why'd you turn away? Here's what I have to say..."

I went on a downloading spree...

Haven't heart this in a while...
"Well here we are again
I guess it must be fate
We've tried it on our own
But deep inside we know
We'd be back to set things straight
I still remember when
Your kiss was so brand new
Every memory repeats, every step I take retreats
Every journey always brings me back to you
After all the stops and starts
We keep coming back to these two hearts
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall
And after all that we've been through
It all comes down to me and you
I guess it's meant to be
Forever you and me, after all
When love is truly right (This time it's truly right)
It lives from year to year
It changes as it goes
Oh and on the way it grows
But it never disappears
After all the stops and starts
We keep coming back to these two hearts
Two angels who've been rescued from the fall
And after all that we've been through I guess it's mean to be
Forever you and me, after all"

Oh my interesting life...
Yes, I really do have an interesting life...and it's all because of the people I know. LOL!! Last week was alright, but I started my weekend on Thursday night! HAHAHA:-D Everything about my long weekend was great and fun...except when I sat down to do my homework on Sunday. But then again, when is homework fun?
We have 2 more weeks of classes, then a week of finals, and then we're done. I'd must admit right now though, I can't wait for next year, for various reasons...

Yeah, she's psycho...
Alright, so just kind of ignore this entry, because it's not directed at what you probably think it's directed at...you probably have no clue at what this is directed at but yeah well, just ignore it.
I WANT TO KNOW!!! I just want to know...

It's snowing...wtf?!
Ok, tomorrow is April 1st and it is SNOWING HERE! And it's not like flurries...it's like a freaking blizzard out there! It's just not right.
Yeah, I can't wait until Bio is over and done with. I worked on bio from 10:00am yesterday to like 10:00pm...that's 12 freaking hours!!! AHH!!!
Ok, done freaking out. So how about some song lyrics?
"There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you in memories
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it, show it
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Theres times I dont believe its right, I know it, know it
Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you, now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell"

"Alcohol isn't anti-freeze"
Last night was...interesting...in a fun way. We had a lot of fun. Stupid Luau party was closed, so we ended up somewhere else. Oh well, it was still fun. Leah definately cracks me up, as does Katie. I hope Leah is ok...she walked back early...I told her to wait until Fran got here, but she didn't want to:-/....Anywho, once Fran got there, it was a ton of fun...she saved me! I owe you for that one! Thank God you were there. Oh man did I get a work out dancing. And had my first visit to the O...Fran needed something to eat. So she got a large thing of fries. And then her, Katie, and I proceeded to devour them. So basically, any calories I burned dancing, I gained right back with those damn fries. Grr...oh well!:-D

Summer? So soon?
Yes, that's right, summer break is coming upon us fast. Like really fast. I only have 3 more weeks of classes! And in 4 weeks, I'm outta here! Which saddens me in a way. I'm going to miss everyone. Sure, I'm going to see "Wisa", Katie, Shaquiea, and Fran over the summer. I'm draggin Fran's ass with me to see people cause they are relatviely close...plus Fran, Shaquiea, and I have the concert in August! Yeyeah!:-D Anywho, I just can't believe that my freshman year of college is drawing quickly to a close. I highly enjoy being here. Plus, my freaking brother isn't coming home this summer! GRR! Well, perhaps Fran-Jessica and I will make a road trip up to Pittsburgh as well, (if you couldn't tell, I do not like driving alone). I also just want this damn move to be over with. I'm going to have to spend like half of my spare time packing up all my shit to move. And probably keeping things picked up because we have to show the house now...GRR! I hate that! Oh well...the only 3 more weeks of classes, however, does make me happy.

A Make-Over
I decided to change the layout for my little journal/profile thingy. I highly enjoy it. In the words of the Courtyard Palace Four, I find it to be delightful. (hehehe).;-)
Anywho, I have realized that I make wonderful friends where ever I go. I mean come on, only would my great friends makes this: "i love to have sex with elves. they are so good in bed. i love to have anal sex with short, pointy-earred elfin boys. they make me sooo hott, want to touch the heiny.=-O" as my away message while I was in the shower and bring up some porn sites on poor Shaquiea's computer. I must admit though, that seeing Shaquiea freak out about the porn, is the funniest damn thing!